Tuesday, March 5, 2013

this is why I gave up on you


Last night I had 2 bad dreams. In the first I was, I think, on an El platform when a coworker I loathe more than many people I have ever loathed showed up and made a face at me. I got her attention and told her we should just agree to leave one another alone. Her presence in my dreams alone is an intrusion.

The other bad dream involved perhaps the other person on Earth I loathe the very most; he is an old man. In the dream, I was visiting his home with a female friend whom I haven't spoken to in, um, years? Anyway, he was being his usual dickish self and I initially tried ignoring him and talking to my friend. Then I decided to walk outside the house for a moment. When I walked back in, they were kissing, and she said, "that was very pleasant!" Outraged and hurt, I was like okay this is not cool. I gotta go. You should come with me. I woke up.

Sometimes I think maybe the weed is still working its way out of my system, all this time later.

Whenever we dive deep, I turn around and you're gone. I simply can't hold my breath.