I just deactivated my Facebook account.

Facebook often helped me to feel anxious and annoyed. It is a timewaster. It is full of people I went to high school and college with that I don't really miss. My Dad just friended me 2 days ago. But really, it's the uncertainty that bugs. I used to fantasize about unfriending everyone except the people I actually consider friends, but I think this is better and cleaner.

fuck it.

******************** UPDATE ************ (02.06.10)

You know, without getting too deep for a personal blog, it seems to me that I am clearly angry about something, which Facebook then magnifies for me. Could it be:

1. Seeing people I know doing things they want to do, while I am not.
2. Seeing people I used to be closer to reduced to status updates, or worse, fearing I've been "hidden" or edited or blocked or whatever by these same people.
3. Seeing people I know communicating with one another, and not with me.
4. That easily-misunderstood tone (internet phenomenon) that turns debates into arguments with a) people you don't care about, so you wonder why this is happening, or b) people you do care about, so you experience a painful rupture.

I'm gonna conclude all of the above. Also, I must point out that it's obvious that my insecurities are the problem, one which Facebook helps to draw out. For now, it's easier to just stay away.

The good news is that I am in the process of making sure I get to do what I want to do in the near future.

Oh and honestly there are plenty of people I went to high school and college with that I do miss, and those people probably know who they are.